eleven

We were born in different places, a time where we didn't know each other.
It's okay to be a little different from others.
It's obvious since we have individual genes that are not the same.

We are unique in our own way
and I feel that you are attractive the way you are.

But I would appreciate it if you were just to stay still
and shut the hell up.


I love you, but I really do hate you.

12:38

It feels like I'm lost in nowhere.

윤도현밴드(YB) - Stay Alive (Korea Rock Band)

MUST 보다가 마지막에 윤도현밴드가 이 노래를 하는데
필이 미친듯이 꽂혔다는거...!

I've been listening to this song for the last hour or so... total addiction..

summer

After hearing that this IS going to be the last time seeing my grandmother,
instead of feeling sad and really down, I was rather excited to go to Korea.
Now I don't.
I don't want to leave anywhere.
I just want to stay in New York. Alone. In my studio. Drawing stuff that no one will ever see.

I am feeling depressed these days and I think that even though I really don't have much
memories with my grandma, she's my family and, that one thing, makes the whole difference.




+
I want to cut ties with several friends
I want to kill some of them (no joke) and I don't understand myself making another self within just to hang out with them + just to be "friends" with them. (and this is something I recently figured out, well, few days ago when a friend pointed it out for me)

When I told one of my "friends" that I needed someone to hear me out she just rattled at me saying that why don't my friends (the real ones) understand her, and why I don't help her out recover the lost relationship between them when I really just called her thinking she would understand my current situation.


I just couldn't hang up the phone.

I cried. She said she wanted her friends back (and it kinda sounded as if it were MY job) and that poor me, but her situation was more important. I didn't cry because of this, but because I realized I had no real friends left in New York.

What an idiot.
I should have cut every fucking emotion out since the beginning.

cutting

it's summer. 

why not cut few inches out of my jeans?

보그 코리아 15주년

vogue korea turns 15

and omg.

one of these ladies is even older than my mom

and one of them is the same age as me..

I feel bad for myself.

다이어트라는건 365일 해야하는건데 말이야..